10:51am October 21, 2014

Do Alters do through the same psychological development as Children? - Kira

So upon discussions with my friend, on the ideas from therapists that my main alter is pretty much based on my best-friend, led to her to tell me of Lacan’s mirror theory. I found the idea interesting and did some more research.

Lacan was a Victorian psychoanalyst and did a lot of work interpreting the work of other psychologists and psychoanalysts of the time. The ‘Mirror-Stage’ theory came into being when he interpreted the work of Sigmund Freud’s daughter Anna Fraud. Anna Fraud worked as a child psychologist primarily.

Lacan proposed in this paper (of which I have read the translation, and summaries of the theory) that when an infant is born it has a very fragmented sense of self, and more so identity (or ‘I’) this could be due to two reasons, of course the fact that psychologically, development is taking place, and also that "the image of a unified body does not correspond with the underdeveloped infant’s physical vulnerability and weakness" (Jacques Lacan 1939).

As a result of this fragmented sense of self, 6 months on and the child will latch on to external images, usually primary caregivers to form the foundation of a sense of self, and an ‘I’ ideal, the end result that will be hoped to achieve by the infant, most likely subconsciously.

The mimicry, can and usually will have a more profound physical response as the child enters toddler years, as some toddlers of course make a point to follow their primary caregivers around and copy their actions and speech patterns and I personally believe that this in itself can add proof to Lacan’s theory.

In summary: "For Lacan, the mirror stage establishes the ego as fundamentally dependent upon external objects, on an other. As the so-called "individual" matures and enters into social relations through language, this "other" will be elaborated within social and linguistic frameworks that will give each subject’s personality (and his or her neuroses and other psychic disturbances) its particular characteristics" (Martin Heidegger 1989, 1998).

Let us now think to ‘alters’ in Dissociative Identity Disorder Systems, can we not consider a moment, that in fact, when an alter is first formed it to has a confused and fragmented sense of self? Does the ‘depersonalization’ aspect of Dissociative Identity Disorder itself give rise to this fact? Not only may this affect one alter, but perhaps, all members of this new fractured psyche?

Is it not possible therefore, that all members; especially the alters themselves that have no identity connection to the original psyche, go through the same stages of child psychological development? Mute alters, may go, even through the linguistic and child articulation stages whilst others who already have these abilities as a ‘default’ may pick up this development at different stages.

I will have to do more research to add more than mere speculation to this theory, but I would urge more people to consider this idea, as it could well help with the understanding of a very misunderstood and controversial disorder.

12:16am October 21, 2014

“Abusers teach you that the monsters are everyone and everything that is not them. That they are the kindest people you will ever meet — that how they treat you is the best way anyone could ever treat you.”

— Spiritual warfare: the world as a battleground — Speaking when the world sleeps (via speakingwhentheworldsleepsJ)
12:11am October 21, 2014





These leafdogs soothe my soul

this is the highest level of wizard

The Council of the Wise

Swamp benders!

I think these dogs have re-watched my neighbour totoro a few too many times xD
12:03am October 21, 2014

“Over the years our research team has repeatedly found that chronic emotional abuse and neglect can be just as devastating as physical abuse and sexual molestation. Sherry turned out to be a living example of these findings: Not being seen, not being known, and having nowhere to turn to feel safe is devastating at any age, but it is particularly destructive for young children, who are still trying to find their place in the world.”

— Bessel van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma (via disabledbyculture)
12:02am October 21, 2014


i love this fucking quote so fucking much

11:59pm October 20, 2014

Stages of Grief

Loss is more than losing loved ones to death, it is also abandonment and change.


Stages of Grief

Loss is more than losing loved ones to death, it is also abandonment and change.
11:55pm October 20, 2014

Infants and Alters - Formed Psychologically Alike?

I have been doing some research of which I will allude to more at a later date when I have the time, but it is leading me to believe that alters, perhaps each and every alter undergo all the same mental and psychological processes as infants when forming in the beginning. I will write in greater detail at a later time.

10:09pm October 20, 2014
spoopyatlas asked: Have you ever heard of a group called Evan & Jaron?

No… what is it? :/

10:09pm October 20, 2014
Anonymous asked: So disgusted at that anon. You loved Jamie, and that should be the end of it. I am so sorry people are treating you like shit you don't deserve this.

Thank you anon, it’s ok, I just started deleting the things that anon said, from the last thing they said, they are just simply out to hurt me, so I won’t let them ^_^

10:07pm October 20, 2014
Anonymous asked: Honey, I'm quite fond of you and your blog but I have to admit I think your perception of love is a little deluded. I think your ex was a wonderful person to you but from what I can draw from my own experiences you were probably the same as me.. lost in that adoration for someone kind to you. You can't call something love if it was so short term xx

Maybe not, I am the first to admit, that I am quick to love because, well, I guess to be loved is my ‘desired place’ and I am not easy to love, the fact someone would even try. Even so of course that wasn’t the only reason I loved him,  just did, I could have given you a long list of why I adored him, but as to why I loved him, I just did. Maybe my idea of love is deluded, but I don’t think the idea of hope is ever deluded, and for me at least, its what will keep me going, fighting for that ‘desired place’.